My Life

 Okay so I think about this sometime, we're supposed to remember things and be able to think about something; paint a picture in our heads. But when I think about something, or try at least, I just don't understand what's supposed to happen. It's like I have no real thoughts? I know I do but I just needed to write.. 

 Okay so think about eighth grade year, and all the innocence. There was a lotttt. Everytime anyone did anything, and anyone found out, within on period, everyone suddenly knows. Talk of the school. Now, after the Freshman transition, nothing seems bad. It's like my conscience has been wiped clean, and re-wired. Nothing seems bad. I don't have regrets. I learn from everything I do and everything makes me stronger. Everything has built up who I am today. I've grown as a person, and a trouble-maker(; 

 Okay so I don't think I'm going to do anything 'fancy' with this yet; I just need to get some thoughts down that swirl and swirl around in my head.

Okayyy. So. Friday night I broke up with my boyfriend of three weeks. The last week of the relationship came the doubts. Saturday night I hung out with M and two guys from W. Mmmmmmmm; were they fine... Still V but still... Had a little fun, on the contrary(; Sooo. Sunday was alright I guess. I realllly liked Z from W but he doesn't ever text me since saturday so I'm thinking that screw it; he obv. doesn't have interest. but then again-- who does? M is liking E; whom I still like through all the things that have went down. He likes her back I'm pretty sure. I know it's not too important buttt that' s pretty dumb. I changed for him a little to get him back but she just swoooped him up like it was nothing. This was also after over the summer when she talked about him in a bad way when I was talking to him... buttt whatever... Ugh. i'm so dumb. I wear a bracelet that says 'FML' and that is just a symbol of my life right now.. I just feeel like nothing ever works out, at least for very long, in my favor. KARMA, anyone??

you think you're finally truely happy but then suddenly something feels like it's missing, lost, forgotten and stuff. It pretty much sucks, ya know? Like sure, guys seem to like me, but that's not enough. I've never had that perfect relationship that so many find. I guess you could call this jealousy..

But I just don't know.....

future HUSBAND is none other than :





ASHER ROTH (!)

dangggg he's bangging(:

I've made a lott of bad choices. It's been a good day, don't get me wrong, but I haven't been the smartest person alive. For example, I probably shouldn't have(in no particular order):

• Drove golf cart into path in forest
• Walk on the path in the forest
• Said I was going to hit this steak with the golf cart(C fell off)
• Drove C into countless trees, on a golfcart
• Screamed everytime we almost flipped the golf cart
• Stared at the Amish
• Spend so much time across the road at the course
• Sang Sour Patch Kids, in front of the amish
• Listen to my iPod, while golfing

                                                        ... and so on.

        (after 11:30a.)

• Hit my brother so much
• Rode bikes
• Got a Red Bull
• Leaf-blowed brush into the road
• Got Booger King
• Invited my brother to play Nintendo
• Scream so much
• Swited the heat protective glove to my left hand
• Texted Justin

That's all for now!!

I never seem to pick the obvious smart choice. Move on, stay. You know, obviousness like that. AHH. I don't even understand. I'm like a magazine. I give amazing advice, no conceit intended, but I never know what to do for the real deal(when it's my turn). WOW idk. Bye?

Dislike!
backstabbing; backstabbers; scary movies; roller coasters; creepers; puppets; clowns; milk; grapefruit juice; cigarette smoke; little brothers; one-worded texts; stupid people; chipping nail polish; Grease (yes, the movie); Daughtry; David Cook; country music; whistling; track; gift wrapping; Hiliary Clinton; Tim Harris; my enV1; dirty feet; dotting i's; always feeling too young; tea; mowing; moving; chapped lips resulting from hour long make out sessions;

Like!
texting; kisses; boys; drawing; thrill movies; romantic movies; comedies; elephants; zebra print; lovers; best friends; mariokart, wiiii; Eli<3; older sisters; youtube; making youtube movies; smiling; laughing; eyeliner; photography; hairstraightener; my ipod touch(yes, it has a zebra case); nailpolish; NeverShoutNever!; food; sleeping; golf; swimming(not the sport, just for fun); talking on the phone; talking; 4-H; shopping; Natalie Gulbis; Doritos; horrible kareoke; being on a boat; drew baby; pictahs; mysic; sun burns; It's On WithAlexa Chung; 6-packs(yes, the abs); camp counceling; showing pigs; driving; some drinking; sour patch kids; cuddling; hour-long make out sessions; Nick<3

Oh, and do the lists go on and onnn foreverr........................
(i will add stuff to them though!!)

freshman year!
I (at least) was talking to the following gentlemen;

• Justin
• Nate
• Aaron
• Christopher
• Cody
• Rob
• Dustin
• Eli(current lovaa)

Welp I think that's everyone(after adding two names.. whoops!)..
Whatta year(;

(a is amanda and m is me.)

A: huh?
M:What?
A:What?
M:huh?
A:huh?
M:What?
A: homosayhuh?
M:huh?
bahahah.
i<3her!